school reopen le & i return to school feeling -.-zZz. well just felt lyk sleeping till 12 wich i've been doing de hole holiday. Anywayx on seeing my classmates, i still -.-zZz..cuz its lyk nv c dem for a mth oso mei you she mo da bu liao de... hmmm i just dun feel a feeling of a "class" in my class lor. I envy those classes whereby everione is so close to each other, or at least hav 1 or 2 good frienx in de class. Den now i oso dun feel lyk sticking wif mi class le..i dun wanna feel lyk a zombie following dem ard, dere r really no chattable frienx. Moreover i myself is quiet & antisocial..so tad's bad. so during freetime often i will go artroom. Tads de onli place where i can be alone n wun feel tad alone =Pp. I beginning to feel i m wasting my youth,...studying in tis school wif subjects i could hav not chosen if given de choice. aiyAx..dunno wad i m toking.. feeling so dreamy nowadays.

I've been tinking back alot...keep tinking if i havnt done tis..or i hav chosen tis, would tings be better now? would i be leading a happier life? Den i will continue to tink if i can go back to 2 past during those moments where i make critical choices or i could hav done/not done smth..wouldn't it be good? If i hav taken bio instead of geog in de 1st place..perhaps i will get a better class. But tings lyddat wun happen la..shldnt be tinking back XD.Life is jux full of regrets, haix.

Hmm i wan2 be motivated!! i wanna be in a class wich will make me feel lyk cuming to sch everiday! Make me feel like waking up everi morning! a class like 4e, everione studying hard when its time 2 study, playing hard when time to play! A class wif a CT tad truely cares for us! A class tad feels like a class! All these lyk seem impossible...cuz after so long i still feel de same abt mi a06. First 3 mths de a03 initially oso make me feel uneasy, but after a while, i m veri happy wif it le..made good frienx lyk jj, mag, carol, sh, etc...i luv u guys!..But those good days in 1st 3 mths r jux so short =(.

So now i wan2 make use of de time when i'm still young to learn tings of interest. I wan2 learn manga drawing.. costs 200 sumthing for 2 mths sia..kinda ex, hope my father will allow.