pretentious me

Sometimes I feel that I am such a pretentious person, pretending to be all happy, optimistic and naive which is actually very much the person I wanna be but it just isn't me. Happiness seems so far far away as the motivation to hope for it dampens. Waking up has once again become such a chore when you have nothing to look forward to. I hate emo and all the desires bestowed to us humans because they all cause misery in the end. I very much wanna be contented with life, with little things I have, but this contentment just wouldn't last. Sigh, I do wish that there's someone I could share my deepest thoughts and feelings to but unfortunately I couldn't really imagine myself doing that to anyone. It's really hard containing them within, when you realise things that you tried so hard to shake off and thought had faded away eventually come back to haunt you once again... :(((

I'm having stomach ache now, drank too much milk! XD

Holidays were a blast initially with all the fun events lined up.

Movies!, Universal Studios!, Hiking!, Photo-taking!, Party!, etc

but is soon died down to super boredom and laziness after just about 2 weeks.

Damn damn damn boredd now.

I went to distribute flyers today and can finally understand the hardship of this job, gonna take flyers from every distributor from now on! :P

The guy who gave me this job is quite trusting and nice by paying me first and introducing me an internship design job which means I might not be that bored soon!

Although I do enjoy doing nothing productive and just laze around, sometimes it does feel quite lonely.

If only there's someone to share these doing-nothings with.

I need HTHT, anyone? :p

emo..