school reopen le & i return to school feeling -.-zZz. well just felt lyk sleeping till 12 wich i've been doing de hole holiday. Anywayx on seeing my classmates, i still -.-zZz..cuz its lyk nv c dem for a mth oso mei you she mo da bu liao de... hmmm i just dun feel a feeling of a "class" in my class lor. I envy those classes whereby everione is so close to each other, or at least hav 1 or 2 good frienx in de class. Den now i oso dun feel lyk sticking wif mi class le..i dun wanna feel lyk a zombie following dem ard, dere r really no chattable frienx. Moreover i myself is quiet & antisocial..so tad's bad. so during freetime often i will go artroom. Tads de onli place where i can be alone n wun feel tad alone =Pp. I beginning to feel i m wasting my youth,...studying in tis school wif subjects i could hav not chosen if given de choice. aiyAx..dunno wad i m toking.. feeling so dreamy nowadays.

I've been tinking back alot...keep tinking if i havnt done tis..or i hav chosen tis, would tings be better now? would i be leading a happier life? Den i will continue to tink if i can go back to 2 past during those moments where i make critical choices or i could hav done/not done smth..wouldn't it be good? If i hav taken bio instead of geog in de 1st place..perhaps i will get a better class. But tings lyddat wun happen la..shldnt be tinking back XD.Life is jux full of regrets, haix.

Hmm i wan2 be motivated!! i wanna be in a class wich will make me feel lyk cuming to sch everiday! Make me feel like waking up everi morning! a class like 4e, everione studying hard when its time 2 study, playing hard when time to play! A class wif a CT tad truely cares for us! A class tad feels like a class! All these lyk seem impossible...cuz after so long i still feel de same abt mi a06. First 3 mths de a03 initially oso make me feel uneasy, but after a while, i m veri happy wif it le..made good frienx lyk jj, mag, carol, sh, etc...i luv u guys!..But those good days in 1st 3 mths r jux so short =(.

So now i wan2 make use of de time when i'm still young to learn tings of interest. I wan2 learn manga drawing.. costs 200 sumthing for 2 mths sia..kinda ex, hope my father will allow.

watched initial D wif kranji frienx jux now..not bad seh, quite cooL. But hate those ahbengs..super AA, make so much noise in de cinema, n sumone even smoke dere! Dey r simply disgraceful lorx..pOoOiix!
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Finished decorating de odac room n boards le..haha smell de spray paint till sort sort liaox XD.Spent de hole morning doing it sia & I'm most satisfied wif de outside noticeboard, proud of it! hahax now ours tink is de most striking notice board le! ^^v Den de rest ok ok la..thou i expect dem to be better, but lyk tad oso quite nice. To all de pple hu help out wif deco : THANK YOU!!! But i jux simply hate it when sum pple is doing nth n yet lyk 2 comment tis comment tad..since u're so boliao, jux GO HOME! dun crap so much..if u can do better u cum n do la..shit tad person.
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holiday is ending le.. and everyone is probably rushing homework now.. sum slackers lyk myself will still hav piles of work undone. haha moreover dere's still common tests when sch reopens sia...shit. Well, all my study plans for tis holiday has failed..all i did was art n some of de maths hw where mani qsns i dunno how 2 do. Dunno la..i actualli plan 2 go study once everi week one but jux cant find anione to grp study wif. Hmm i simply have no motivation at all!!! >_< Last time used to grp study wif laine de..but now she's in poly le. Den de rest of mi frienx all seem to prefer studying at home.=(...so bo bian la..i must learn to be more independent thou, but i feel so unmotivated! After doing maths 4 a while, i go do my own tings le. I wish i do not have to take all these subjects n concentrate in pursueing my passion in art, music & other interests but too late i have chosed tis path. okiex so perservere!!!! XD
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Cats @ spca are so cutex! Love it when they come and cuddle me,haha.


Kitty has such big eyes!

Beautiful white cat

Skinny and gentle cat


Jack Ruselle, girl loves to bite her ball. XD
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hmm 2day noon i was really huo3 da4...angry sia cuz all mi PW grp members pang seh. At 1st alreadi say hao do de street survey 2gether at orchard, den go youth park take pictures but dey one by one pang seh..realli angry lorx cuz i alreadi went to meet dem le n nobodi was dere!..den i oso dun wanna go le ..wait 4 cheryl cum n pass mi de survey forms den we went 2 giv everithin 2 kenneth..realli angry sia cuz i was all dressed up 2 go orchard

den i called carol to ask her go spca wif mi..actualli supposed 2 go 2day one..jux bcuz of PW i pushed it away, tads y i was so pissed off wif dem >_<..den she was late..so i rot dere 4 more den half hours. Realli sian lor, so mi sian dao go read mi geog notes. Havnt been studying during de holidays...wad i've been doing is jux art XD..but now oni left 2 weeks le. Jux simply not in study mood when i m at home..hahax

After tad when she finally came, we decided 2 go orchard instead since spca is goin 2 close soon. went 2 hav mi fav RAMEN!..thou ex, but worth it..last time mi addicted 2 u-mian, now is ramen le..haha. nowadays i realli can eat alot..bcuming more n more yao kwee n hav been spending alot on food..but nvm, i'm still in de "growing period", as long as i havnt reach 21, i still hav hope to grow de! so muz eat more =Pp..Later we went to youth park, by den i wasn't so angry le..moreover i realli wan2 look at those graffiti..den took pics, sum were realli nice seh! But too bad didnt hav chance to learn abit of de skill frm graffiti artists.



Next, we jiu walk ard... i dun realli lyk window shopping but once in a while la so nvm. we oso went bugis..den ate desert n cookies n de free samples dere too. mani irresistable n delicious stuff! omg..haha but mi wallet got hole le..spent alotx all on food today. But bo bian la, some food especially cookies n ramen r jux too irresistable le, tinking of it i m startin 2 drool..hahax
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ok time to update..ytd went kbox wif mi fellow kranji frienx, fun!! haha cuz not veri often can get together one. its de longest kbox session i've been to sia! 7.5 hours..haha sing lyk crazy. Eeteng, Ankiang & cheekong can sing quite well actualli, esp eeteng can sing veri high..hahax den dere r lotsa new songs at kbox! got F.I.R's,JJ's, etc. too bad badger is not dere, after tad a few of us went to cck park to play truth or dare again. & we hav zhenyin to shake her butt 4 de finale n tad a guy happen to jog pass n he stared at her wif disbelief..LOLX!! funni sia
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WEEEEE!!! i am recovering frm mi rashes le! after 2 days of camping at home sia..terrible..haha it feels so great to be out in de sun again~ Frm de rashes experience, i will NEVER eat curry or apply prickly heat powder ever again! Oso i've learnt to be cleaner lex..i dun wanna suffer again~..hahax last 2 days keep applying tad cream sia, but later den i notice tad de cream actualli hav lotsa side effects one, such as thinning of skin, oversensitivity, hair growth ,etc n i still so generously apply so much.. XD now i oso feel mi skin veri weak le..but hope it will recover over time ba.

2dAy have art at botanic garden! hahax i enjoyed being close to nature..lotsa beautiful flowers thou mainly r orchids..i love de sun too! XD Well basicalli this whole holiday will be sort of an "art holiday", cuz most of de tings i will be involved in will concern art which is GREAT! Thou de busiest holiday i hav so far, but i enjoy it. =Pp HAve ceramics course 4 this week, den will hav to do art project on de artist, den hav to finish up eclipse shading & drawin, den PW oso do on graffiti & will be goin 2 lasalle n youthpark, finally will be decorating odac room n board~...everithing is art! haha ya i m simply crazy abt art cuz tads mi passion ^^v. I'm glad tad ODAC gives mi lotsa chance to do art, thx 4 believin in mi pple! haha n since mi rashes r alrite le..i can finalli go spca n swimming again! lookin 4ward~~~
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion 50% Stability 60% Orderliness 43% Empathy 43% Interdependence 56% Intellectual 23% Mystical 56% Artistic 90% Religious 10% Hedonism 10% Materialism 30% Narcissism 56% Adventurousness 63% Work ethic 36% Self absorbed 43% Conflict seeking 30% Need to dominate 56% Romantic 50% Avoidant 43% Anti-authority 70% Wealth 23% Dependency 63% Change averse 50% Cautiousness 50% Individuality 63% Sexuality 50% Peter pan complex 36% Physical security 63% Food indulgent 10% Histrionic 56% Paranoia 43% Vanity 76% Hypersensitivity 50% Female cliche 23%

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Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.


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changeable, in the middle, suspicious, somewhat traditional, dislikes chaos, down to earth, group oriented, practical... you scored in the middle on the overall factors of this test.

kaox..feel so frustrated...it all started on wed after odac. it ended earli so went home n fell asleep, overslept n missed both piano lessons n hai tun wan, den wif body itching all over. So applied de prickly heat powder. de nxt day in sch got even more itchy but cant scratch, cuz rather obscene..terrible sia. den chinese period realli buay tahan den discovered dere's rashes on mi hands. So sign out n c doctor. later at home bathing saw a disgusting site..i nv had tis kinda rashes b4 so i was rather shock...patches of swollen red was all over..eekxx. After tad applied medcine actualli i recovering le..quite fast. 2day dinner eat curry, n all mi medication gone to waste! worse rashes started cumin out on other parts of body n sum parts tad alreadi recovered n dey r even redder n bigger patched..yux! n de WORST ting is mi face oso got!!! i realli felt frustrated lor! y she brought home curry rice!!! >_<..i guess i will hav 2 camp at home 4 a few days..haha
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Hai Tun Wan Lian Ren hen hao kan! yet again n again i keep missing de show.. shit! XD
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Gross! ytd nite watched mi 1st nc-16 show at de cinema, hse of wax..omg it is damn bloody GROSS! gross factor 98/100..nv seen such a gross show b4 , its even worse den m18's seed of chucky lor...eeww shldnt describe de show further, dun wanna be reminded of it..jux walk out of cinema n felt lyk puking. XD
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bAck from odac indusction camp..have loads to write abt..haha

b4 de camp went home to pack up..den i tot i have alot of time left jiu use de leftover spray paints to paint my backdoor. BiG MIsTaKe! lolx..due to inexperience, i tink i messed de hole place. Firstly, i did not put newspaper on de grd! n paint was all over n i have to spend hell lotta time scrubbing dem away..haha sum still stain dere sia. 2ndly dere is not enough paint! lolx..den i paint de door halway so ugly, i quickly use all de posters n drawings i hav to paste on it n cover up! haha. Thirdly, de hole room is toxified! haha everiwhere is smog, n de hole fan blow it till blue colour le..haha stink sia..i almox killed by poison. Forthly, i underestimated to time needed, n i m running late for de camp..hahax. Guess painting iznt so easy after all, let alone graffiti. aniwayx i will touch up wif mi templates another day, still hav red paint left..haha fun thou it stinks.

After tad i rushed mi way to meet lilian, hav to help her take flag pole wich is lyk damn long lor..so pai seh carryin it ard..haha hard to squeeze in2 de taxi n bux, wif everione starin. n de lot1 security guard chase us out bcuz of tad! he so fierce sia, lyk tink we wanna kill pple wif it lyddat, haha lucki de bubbletea uncle let us put de poles dere so we can hav our dinner at lot1. Next was de start of de camp loe..de nite in sch was quite fun.


[My grp! i m proud of our flag! so nice cuz is i design de! *bhb* i m proud of our shirts! cuz de paw logo is i design de *bhb* n we each designed de rest of de shirt ourselves~ nice rite?..haha]

At 1st we hav orienteering, tis time we hav 2 rush 2 different placed to get extra food..wich is essential, cuz de food given to us is lyk so little, plus our grp's bread, jam n milo got confiscated cuz of sum misunderstandings. n we found quite alot, de 2nd best grp haha. but it was so unfair, after tad we hav de auction tingy wich allow ani grp 2 trade wad dey wan. Our hundred plus got traded in2 a can of PEAS!!! OMG! peas *puke* hu on earth will eat tad..lolx..lucki we traded it away after sacrificing a packet of rice. Aniwayx i manage to save mi can of mushroom by hiding it b/w mi legs thruout de auction! clever ritex?..i tink mushroom is de tastiest food we hav le! haha


[North South East West, Hu's de best?..beargars beargars is de best! haha]

Next, we head for de nxt game, de one wif candles n twines, where we suppose to twine ropes ard other's flag n save our own flags by burning de twines. FUN! esp can blow out other's candles...it realli feel good to c their expression when dey hao bu rong yi lite up de candle den i go n blow it out..LOL *saddist* ...Aniwayx its a chaos la cuz everione is blowing everione elses' candle. later dey restrict to oni those wif lited candles can blow jiu not so fun le.


[Ready to set off for ubin! =D]

Finalli tad nite is solo nite..each of us slp in 1 corner of pjc wif 2 eggs in our hands n we hav to protect dem frm being stolen by seniors. haha well, i squashed de 1st egg, n couldn't keep de 2nd one pass 3am.. got stolen by serena when i fell asleep..haha budden w/o burden can slp better, so nvm.=Pp De nxt morning another funni ting happened..we got scolded by serena for taking so long to assemble..den serena jux tok finish, suddenli waikim shouted loudli n fierceli frm bhind "SEVEN MINUTES! U ALL TOOK SEVEN MINUTES!.." n his actions were lyk so funni lor, frm den on it has bcome his trademark n everione is imitating him..lolx


[ ah toots! lao beh behs! LOLx]

We set off to ubin soon after, played cards on de bus n got closer wif mi grp. mi grp, de "unbearable beargars" rox. haha... well at ubin is walk n walk n walk non stop wif heavy bagpack n stuff, its realli a test of endurance lor. we hav to go frm checkpts to checkpts wich r quite far frm 1 another, to do sum stuffs. Teamspirit is built oso la. Dere is one station wich is de robots one. i, esther n sharin were blindfolded as de robots n we hav to do as instructed. have to do stupid tings lyk putting a bucket over mi head, lucki mi cam gone out of batt at tad moment, or u all will get 2 c mr bucket man..lolx.. den dey tried to cheat mi in2 dancing pole dance say everione will dance.. tink i stupid meh after i c how yingping embarass himself during grad nite, de same trick wun fall 4 mi..hahax


[veri nice photo!]

At nite is ODAC nite, all grps acted out de skits. tink de best one hav to be de skit done by ruhua grp. so funni lor, wenyang acted out de seven minutes ting, so alike sia..LOL..nxt de j2s n tchers started getting horny n dance de flirt dance, funni sia..haha guys gaying each other, guys as kuniangs. esp de one by de 2 tchers, dey went in2 de tent n shake it so hard..haha


[seasick XD..lolx]

De nxt morning on sunday dere's a thunderstorm sia, everi sunday hav 2 rain one leh -.-"..our basha collapsed den we all ran in2 de hut 4 shelter. later while heading to de jetty..it rained heavily again >_< n we were all soaked wet..hahax..took our goodbye photos dere. aniwayx it will be a memorable camp..hahax learnt quite alot. However saw one sad ting at ubin..dere were lotsa stray dogs lying ard, n dey all look so frail n weak due to starvation..dey so desperate for food tad dey teared de can for de remaning tuna..den compared to dem de food we hav dere thou suck a little, but we alreadi consider veri xin fu lex ... anw hope de dogs wun hav 2 suffer too much..


[ de robots game ]

Back in sch basicalli was washin up n debriefing. after tad went off to lot 1 to hav our big feasts after so long! ate alot alot..but brought de wrong ting..brought de korean MAGGEE MEE again for 4.50..lolx dey rephrase de name now called "korean noodle" instead of "korean ramen"..shit sia pay so much for a big bowl of maggee mee -.-..nv will i eat korean mee agaiN!

Well, back in sch 2day n flunk 2 tests str8. chinese n geog surprise test. mi time management realli suck lor! cant even finish de chinese one wif almox de hole li jie wen da blank, n i noe nth of de tian xie han zhi..shit. geog surprise test tink fail le sia...cuz i nv revise mi work one =( dun even noe wad is fertility rate lor! i realli need 2 be in a study grp! so anione reading tis pls jio mi out 4 studyin or i wun study alone one, i will jux do mi hw wichever free time i hav or slack ard =Pp haha wad a long entry, end here ^^v
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i'm tiredx~..recently veri busy. especially wif odac stuffs, gotta prepare alot of stuffs 4 de upcumin camp and de proposal 4 leadership camp. Aniwayx our grp rox man~ haha.. we spent alot of effort doin de flag & grp shirt, chosed mr bean bear as our grp's soft toy..haah. napfa cumin up sia..2day's 2.4 not bad got improve. Den still busy wif art too, realli hav to put in effort in de subject sia.. thou it realli makes mi quite shag, but no matter wad mux do mi best ^^v

Aniwayx i still find tad i hav lotsa tings undone..realli alot alot i wanna complete n learn. i'm feeling lost in geography, sumone help mi! Crappified by GP too, felt veri forced in de subj, have 2 read tis read tad, i hate reading! i wonder how to score for it, feel so reluctant to be forced in2 doing tings>_<. Oso i feel tad when i got ani qsns, couldn't realli depend on mi classmates animore.. sorri to say, but i realli tink tad i m in a slacker class.Thou i miself mayb a slacker, budden i realli hope to be in a motivating class loex =(. realli misses 4e when everione is hardworkin n do hw on time. now i dun even noe when 2 pass up hw lor..cuz is lyk few pple r doing? hmm guess i muz learn to be more independent n take more initiative bax
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Tues went back to kss wif juju! so long nv met her le..she changed quite abit sia, now short hair lex. haha. I quite happi to be back wif mi good pal..n i miss de fruit juice stall loads! so 1st ting we went to canteen..saw old frienx py, yunju, etc...den we saw mr ong, my "yao fen shu" hahax..he still as mani tings to say as ever..den mrs ram n miss lee joined in de conversation n it went on n on when i'm veri hungry alreadi..hahax so i kept hintin juju to tell dem cuz i bu hao yi si..aniwayx mani tings sell finish le by den..i ate quite alot cuz miss de food loads..althou dey aint realli nice, but jux miss de taste..haha cuz i m gettin sick of pjc's food too everithin is lyk de same!

Den we went to look at de changes of de sch..now can guang ming zhen da take lift le..even got a new tcher like greetin us lyddat! haha make us feel lyk vip. De nice auntie is still dere, but de classrooms changed quite alot. Now dey can paint their own classrooms! soo good..if laz time lyddat jiu hao..i can spray graffiti~ Den 1 class even got class pets! We jiu secretly went in n play wif de hamsters..haha so cute. Sadly, mi artspiration board seems to hav been abondoned. We oso actualli wan2 find mr shasi de..cuz i wanna show off to him one, hu ask him laz time alwayx kan bian n pick on mi..hahax but too bad he ain't ard. Well, its realli good to go back once in a while~ =D
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i really enjoyed miself y'day! long time nv so fun lex, went to celebrate pat's b'day at kbox. Actually wanted to post de pics..but dey r wif pat n her comp is spoilt..so shall post nxt time.

As usual, we meet outside kbox n dey r all late! hahax so i spend mi time mis-calling pat, at least i hav smth to do...haha. Den when dey all arrived, we jiu went in n sang our lungs out. pat is still as zhao sia queen as ever..esp when she sang "Wu Ke Qun"..OMG! everibodi was laughin..haha den dey keep wantin to eject de song, but when she sing other songs all quite nice la...haha. Den we hav hongqi de destroyer, everitime destroy other pple's songs one leh! We oso hav de silent singers; shanshan, chunyan & kahhwee...canot hear dem one! lolx. I enjoy singing Zhang Shao Han's "Yi Shi De Mei Hao", currently mi fav song..so nice sia! de show veri nice too. Singing duet songs n those scream-out-loud songs oso veri fun! n now i almox lost mi voice..veri hoarse le..haha

Another funni ting happened when we left kbox..de worker dere asked mi,pat n can if zhenyin was our tcher..den she say wad she wearing auntie clothes or smth..LOL!!! we bursted in2 laughter after tad! Next, we went take neoprint. de 1st time so mani pple squeezing in2 one neoprint machine..haha den it cums out so mani heads de =Pp

After dinner at Let's eat..de remaining 6 of us (zy,gr,kiat,pat,ck,kh) went cck park to play truth or dare. I luv tad place! cuz hav lotsa memories dere =D Den Playing truth or dare wif dem is realli dangerous too! For truths, dey will ask qsns regarding sex...for dare, dey will ask u to do sum disgusting stuffs. N i m veri suay! tink i tio de most number of times. For dare dey will ask u to either show ur underwear, dance nude dance, pole dance, gay ard...all kindsa disgusting stans...omg! haha but aniway everitin was realli fun! =D n finalli we left 4 home at ard 10 sumthin.
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loner =(

i didn't know drawing circles & ovals can be tad hard..as in those kinda perfect n symettrical one. De 1st art lesson wif hav 2day, we practiced drawing round shapes so as 2 aid us in drawing round objects faster..reminds mi of de "hua dan lian gong" in de chinese txtbk.. haha. Budden mi circle's lyk so squarish lor..hmm jux not used 2 tis way of drawing, but i mux adapt fast if not exam i sure wun hav enough time de=Pp Well, i oso saw de other art students hav veri good drawings too..tad spur me even more..i muz work harder to produce better drawings! ^^v
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Quite long never update about myself le. Nowadays i very much try to get myself involved in things, cuz i find that i have too much free time le! and too much free time = boredom = more time to think about things = think too much = think of sad things = sad. Now in PJC...i have my art lessons, got into ODAC, but i still feel tad dere is smth missing...i feel a sense of emptiness, dunno how 2 say it la...duh-.-

Some problems i am oso facing are health problem n class problem. My back has been aching 4 like a week n i don't even noe y..oso dere is a strange patch of rashes at de side of mi body. From itchiness it has gotten into pain.. i wonder wth caused it...den mi parents keep asking mi 2 go c doctor but i veri reluctant sia..it is jux so troublesome..but this lil problems has been hindering my actions >_<

Den in my class i can't help but feel like an odd one out. dere r quite a few diff cliques in my class..whichever clique i try 2 fit into i still feel similarly left out..-.- i hate tis.. cuz tis will be de class i will stay wif 4 2 years so its like quite bad lor

But despite these problem..i m still trying hard 2 mantain a positive attitude la..cuz cant let tis probs bug me too much . Trying hard to adapt to de teacher's ways of teaching too..i m now more used to tad ang moh phy geog tcher le..thou he toks so fast w/o puntuation marks n its tough catching wad he says ..but on de other hand, he's oso quite funny at times la...for GP, thou we hav 2 split class wich is realli unfair..cuz y izit our class?..but our tcher, ms lee's veri friendli la..but de most #%^%#@ tcher of all has to be my CT cum chinese teacher...he initially want us 2 tuck in our shirt oni 1 inch below de waist! more den tad= tuck out n he claim it's de sch rule..wad crap is tad..after much bargain, he changed to 2 inch..hahax den he alwayx carry blue forms ard 2 catch us! once caught hav 2 write 500 word essay sia..he damn kpo lor..hahax. but cuming to tink of it..last time in kranji de sch rules oso veri strict de la..so i will try to adapt lor =Pp

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F.I.R's new album <> out le! veri nice~ hahax hope 2 buy it soon..dere r mani nice songs sia, mani happy songs.. veri motivating..mi fav is "wu xian"! Go tis site to listen 2 de album ba ^^v Click here