Happy tcher's day! haha so happy my art coursework dateline has been extended! Now i have until 26th of sept! weee..i feel so much like a rabbit now, can slp le..lolx..But still must cont'd to refind 2 de best of it la, but can b @ a slower pace le..woohooo. Can study 4 mi prelim, n slack 4 a few days oso liao..wahaha. No art paper for prelims too! Our coursework wld be marked instead, dunno is good or bad cuz i don realli wanna so fast noe mi coursework grades, thou is not 4 real but if my tcher didnt giv mi a grade i expect, it would be damn demoralising lo, cuz a lvl shld b ard dere le. Hmm, but try my best lo.

2day slacked n played! wahaahaa, went k wif teng n ahneh. We had so much fun. n i tink i've improved, haha well @ least teng said i hav...wahaha so encouraged! N ahneh grow so tall la..wtf..haha like head fit wrong body, ooppx.. cuz its hard 2 believe!! >_<..oh man.. i still hav 3 more yrs, miracle pls! Hmm anw its a pity laine doesnt wanna sign up 4 project superstar, her singing so good la!

Began to c how fake de world can be, everiwhere. Mayb we're just living in a hypocritical world, where everione is jux pretending, so beware..

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WTF WTF WTF!!! WO HEN FANNNN!!!! so fukin irritatin. Pple keep tellin me not to do digital art for my coursework. N i was tol by 1 directly bcuz dey r not nice. Ok.. tad hurts man.

Well pple likings differ la..wad u tink is not nice mayb nice in other pple's eyes..but de ting is wad if everione tinks its not nice except me??! i've lost my confidence le...

Anw i shld tink tis way..pple tink i canot do tis..i pian pian wanna do 2 show dem!! But lyddat i will b damn stressed out la.grr i hate stress. Watever it is i jux wanna do de tings i like doing..so i shldnt care abt wad others tink. De ting is sumtimes my insistence will lead me to nothin in de end... =(

De irritatin A lvl requires so much tinking in my artwork la..my tcher asked me 2 explain n i jux couldnt express miself in words lo. Cuz i follow my feelings when i do tings.. jux hate 2 tink tink tink lo. Y do human being hav 2 make life so difficult by tinkin tis tinkin tad..stop it le! wtf. Force us to tink lo..saddist examiners.

I feel like jux don giv a shit abt anithin..jux contented wif gettin a C in all subjs..
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Been soccering with my class guys..Fun man! wahaha ..anw de oni tings tad interest me on goin 2 sch now is soccering durin breaks n after sch n handball during PE lessons! Cuz i no longer like de art room due 2 de pple. N i can feel stress ard me le..thou i try hard not 2 be stress. Faster end this shitty a lvls pls!!! I like 2 work @ my own pace n not b pressurised by anithin ..wanna b carefree!! A few more mths ..

Ytd veri fun!! Felt very happy n home lo. Went back kranji wif smac n pat for fd nite. I was really surprised to c mani frienx tad haven seen 4 a long long time! Saw chuan n gang, saw weipei, saw san, n many many! wahaha n chatted ard n took pics. But no pple frm our batch enthu 2 dance leh..lol..so in de end oso nv realli danced. Nonetheless i m realli happy n touched to c my frienx again!! PJC is nth compared to mi kranjians! Later went 2 eat wif chuan dey all..haha finally c his botha look, thou not so botha. It seems tough 4 him @ NS, onli a day break a week..lol..all de best ba..i hope i not lyddat nxt time, i wan slack job! ahaa Den @ kranji alot of pple hav grown taller n bigger size den me,..me still so smallish..urgh. But i do hav some progress, now back to my 48.7kg le! wahaha nuu li towards my 50, n i need a miracle to shoot up within 3 remaining yrs!! MIRACLE PLSSSSSSS!!!! K..bac to ytd, all like so earli go home de..lol still it had been fun! haha
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I wasted alot of time today. Spent de whole afternoon in art room writing de CCA testimonial..lol! too many tings to write le.. XD. Yea rite..haha actualli was laughin my way thru wif weiling!! So funni lo! Cuz i write till veri lame n bhb..den we tink of lotsa lame tings to write. Well, tis kinda ting muz be thick skin one lo, muz exaggerate n write till like don hav u cannot! lolx After whole afternoon i'm veri satisfied wif my CCA testimonial, you chen jiu gan! wahaha Anw i managed to fight 4 CIP hours! jux 4 a few art stuffs, earned 60 hrs of CIP! lol

Den surfed de NTU art n media design course criteria too. very ma fan, hav 2 several troublesome tings : Portfolio
tink 400/500 word essay abt urself (wth?)
video intro of uself (wth?)
a visual test
Hmm, tink can only learn media design dere, so nxt time most prob do job associated to visual comm, advertising n stuffs or product design lo. I hope i can enter, if cant i oso dunno where i gonna go nxt le. Go abroad?..i prob wont make any friends n bcum an outcast. Go NAFA/ Poly?.. Like quite wasteful. Hmm don study le?..i still have my smac..mayb can go all out 2 succeed in de business....., but no capital! lol
So i must get in2 de course in NTU by all means!!! I CAN DO it de! ^^v

I oso noe my art results le. Veri sian diao le, i no longer so disapointed le cuz like veri sian diao le lo. De grades hav been declining since promos. 70 to 65 to 61, while some other peeps i tink hav improved. Moreover art is harder 2 score, so i m still a C grade now. Veri discouragin lo, i not onli nv improved but deproved constantly leh. Rite now wad i wanna do most is to find out where mi prob is n improve on it! i don care anithin else le, i must get A! Tink paper 2 must come up wif somethin more "fine art" ba, cuz my final piece 4 MYE to flat n graphic le, shld be smth lyddat. Anw i need encouragements!!! >_<

Anw i saw 2 sparrows fite 2day,..wahaha! k, 2 weeks passin soon, 6 more weeks to complete my coursework! i need 2 do 34 pages, rite now oni realli complete 1?.. OMG!!! help.

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A black kitten ran in2 my hse 2day!! early in de morning, so surprised! but i was abt 2 rush to sch..shux alwayx met wif kittens earli in de morning one. My mum asked me to take it out..haha

I cant bear to leave mi kitten!!! lolx CUTE!!!! den i brought it downstair n saiyang it awhile..den i cant bear to leave her, tinkin of bringin her to sch..haha But she keep scratching me, notti! So no choice, hope she find a loving owner or find her mama soon! take care kitten!

Den off went to sch le! veri boring..haha i m so in holiday mood. Den on hearing all de remedials dey will be givin, i sian diao le..grrr. Did de MOE survey today, basically most of mi ans r disagrees, cuz i don like de sch , de pple, de system, everitin..haha..art is de oni ting tad make mi refrain frm puttin all disagree.

my maths result is BAD! "B"! de whole arts stream oni got 1 A.. how bad. Disappointin lo, i tot i hav done wad i could but it jux doesnt seem enough, irritating. Finalli passed physical geog wif a D!! wahahaha, good news..i finally c hope in tis subj.

Finally..our SMAC site is almox ready, thou haven officially open, here it is, leave comments wor =D
www.s-m-a-c.blogspot.com


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I bought a new piano le! wahaha..cant stand de zao sia piano leh, cuz de music i play not nice i will start to lose interest in piano le. Anw coming to tink of it, i havnt pay laine $ 4 de old piano, oopx. I bought a new score too, all my yanzi favourites! wahaha, gonna learn all! Now gr8 sale, so all cheaper =D..hopefulli my piano skills go to gr8ter heights, cuz compared to those hu start frm young, i feel quite inferior leh. lol jia you ba

Anw 21st july got fd nite @ kranji! haha gonna go! miss those days.
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dunno wich asshole go n drip water on my final work n it almox smudged! lucki discover earli n managed 2 save it. Wa lao..if it is on purpose, realli despicable lo..if accidently oso can wipe it off de ma..leave it dere 2 smudge..dunno wich clown did it..curse tad person! Anw i was quite satisfied wif mi final piece =D..END OF MYE!! HAAHAHAA

Met ju jux now, had de 1st business meeting. wahaha..planned lots n lots of tings! Well pple may laugh @ our ideas, but don care! wait till we succeed..haha anw if nv succeed oso nvm la, its de process tad matter, de fun n de experience! haha. I'm still lookin 4ward, 1st we shall start a website!

Anw came up wif a "mission very impossible", wich is 2 help mojo make over n ultimately join our SMAC business team!! wahaha tad soo impossible la.. rem way bac in sec 2 we had diet plan 4 him, n he nv follow, after we packed our tings n stroll 2 de canteen 2 check on him, he alreadi finished his whole plate of junk food! lol ..den we oso got dye his hair b4, wich is a disaster, wahhaha tad time his hair bcum patches of orange! But we wanna stop him frm bcuming giodarno "dai yan ren"..lol his wadrobe all giodarno leh.

Next BIG NEWS! NENG KOR (2 dollars) is in de OLD FOLKS HOME NOW!!! LOL! 4 those hu dunno hu is neng kor, dere, tad woman hu alwayx go ard asking 4 2 dollars @ limbang one..de one in pyjamus n looks sort! I wonder where is her sis, SAR KOR! lol she got a sis lo, rem way back in sec sch , me wif chuan dey all went 2 shoot rubbleband @ her! lol..playful us. I miss those days

Anw i sorta noe y i dun realli clique wif de jc pple
1) dey r veri english
2) dey tink 933 is orbiang n dey oni listen 2 eng songs
3) lotsa fake pple ard hu goes bitchin bhind pple's back
4) Dey laugh @ ahbengahlian languages (e.g. euuu, lurbexx, etc)
5) Many complex minded pple
6) childish n boorish gers
aiya..dunno le..anw mi life in jc is terrible cuz many times i feel sooo alone..bcame veri antisocial n nobody to tok to leh.
Tads y i realli hope 2 graduate real real soon! actualli shldnt go 4 grad nite ritex..regret leh..waste of money,...i wont realli miss anione i met in jc leh..cuz those better frienx had all left

Ju told me lotsa crazy stuffs..she realli hav lotsa wacky ideas! lol n we going to start our own business soon~ hopefully by de end of de yr! Seems soo fun,..so excited! Our company call SMAC.
MYE is almox over! Tml is last art paper! HIGH! wahaha
Miss de gang.. Hope 2 c dem soon
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ben si le ben si le!!! i went for de wrong paper de 2nd time!!! >_< >_< >_< feel like diggin a hole n hiding mi head in it!!! lol so pai seh la..tis time i tink oni mi ben ben come sch so earli..cuz oni saw j1s ard..lol

Wa lao hu would hav suspected a paper such as maths wich most pple r takin would be in de afternoon? Tad time i came wrong time is oso chinese, a paper most pple takin de.. Kao!! i could hav slept long long ..afternoon paper takes away mi study time oso.. =( examinations sux

wahaha its summertime!! finalli ..for 4 continuous days no rain all sun!!!! high!! weeeee don u jux love tis time of de yr? hopefulli it lasts

Anw after studyin wif dine n jeff @ mac jux now, we went arcade! WAhAHAHaha FUN fun Fun!! play like siao over de ice hockey game till damn hiong den everione was starin! hahaha. It was even more excitin cuz we bet on money! @ 1st we played w/o rules veri fun..can use hand block wich is mi qiang xiang! Cuz even orh chey oso wan2 block de opponent's goal! jeff c we keep goalin use both hands block everi corner of de goal hole, LOL den lyddat still can lose!!! waahaha i enjoyed winning lyk siao. Den later canot play hands le..luck oso goes away le XD...

Gr8 stress relief man!!! shld go play more often. I do belief play n study shld be @ equilibrium..haha!

i no longer like de art room...
I really can't stand a few pple. after de J1s come it, de room gets far too squeezy n noisy, grrr. But gonna move room soon, 2 de place where de gym used 2 be, hopefully it would b better.
Anw after i go jc, i find tad dere r alot of fake pple ard..hypocrites. I miss kranji, de pple dere r not like tad.
I feel lost too, no longer tad sure n firm of wad i wan..

Anw tis yr's SYF's theme song veri nice! sung by zhiyang n teresa..veri encouragin de! Here to listen
http://jus-turquoise.blogspot.com/
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kahhwee! like this midi ma?..lol

Recently went kbox n discovered lotsanew nice songs!! Now i would like 2 recommend, trust my taste ba..lol. Tank's qian nian lei, yu heng's yi ran shi peng you, fan yi chen's fang sheng, zhang jing xuan's duan dian, cheng yi's deng dai, hongjunyang's sha sha de shei, jolin's ma de li bu si yi, li jiu zhe's zai jian, hu ge's liu yue de yu.. all damn nice!!! Jurong's kbox is de best! haha thou de service veri slow, but can "tu" till veri late..haha 1st time we wanna go off earli den dey don let us go! Cuz bill n drinks nv come..haha.

>_< i don wan study!!!lazy! but i noe i still hav to..arghx ren nai bahx
Anw everi nite 9pm show rem to watch wo de xuan xuan k! XD *heart melts*
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ytd NS medical checkup. Damn paiseh la..i opened de wrong door! ..to de room wich need to take off pants one! LOL..den de pple inside go "woow"..lOl pai seh sia!! Anw couldnt complete de whole ting ytd, left de questions tingy so need go bac again nxt thurs,..sian.

Later met wif ju..actualli watchin cars cuz i got de half-priced tix. Den we left de tix @ de foodcourt! omg..so ke xi, i felt quite bad oso cuz de tix mi ma get 4 me one. Tink gonna watch it @ ju's hse ba after she got de movie. So we went arcade play de percussion tingy, fun ehx cuz is chinese pop songs one. Got my fav "zi you" n "shen qi"..percussion can be quite fun. On de long way back, tok wif ju abt lotsa tings. Learning hiphop end of yr! lotsa tings we wanna learn, well youth is limited, so shld ba wo cuz old le will have more excuses to say "not enough time". Anw tinking of a way to make laine go study,..find smth tad her interests realli lies in, quite hard la, cuz she veri 3 min passion..hmm..

I HATE DE RAIN! BOOOO go away!!!
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Had GP paper on friday..i dont understand!!! De language seems so alien, wtf is undermined? lol..anw compre screwed, donno wth de passage toking.
After de paper, watched X3 wif some of mi classmates. Gr8 show, thou X2 is better. Lotsa pple died, so sad.As usual, alot of wolverine one man show, wich i don like cuz he don hav those kinda aggressive special powers, jux using his claws n physical strength onli. Storm's damn cool, her lightning attacks. Haha, n we discovered jagguanut realli look like kenneth, de way he say "u noe hu i am? I M DE JAGGUARNUT BITCH!" LOLx!

Ok, june holidays le, i'm gettin worried tad i might not be able 2 complete mi art coursework on time. n bad news, cuz i'm doin a picture book n printing n binding gonna cost a bomb. On top of tad, still need to print a mock copy in case of mistakes n de sch can oni subsidise 4 tad. Tad means i might hav 2 make de book myself, wich will not look so proffessional le n might even b filmsy. Right now i still keep changing my mind abt de content of de book, putting in fantasy le.. hopefully i'll not change mi mind animore. Anw i don wanna make myself feel tad i m doing art 4 de sake of completing de coursework, i wanna enjoy de process! Dere was a period of time a few weeks ago when i feel i m losing passion, scary. Now i shall not push miself so hard le ba, yup. Hmm, my skin is dehydrating la, no idea y, mi face peels, dry n weird, cant smile properly..shux.
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Well, i found out tad mani times i m unhappy n feeling down jux bcuz i tink too much, wich is jux zhi zao ma fan la. So i shall not tink too much animore, hopefully.. Anw i realli hate sum "human nature" we possess such as greed, uncontentment, envy, curiousness, etc. Den we won be satisfied, so wad if smth is achieved, it will nv be enough, u'll keep wanting n wanting. It's nv enough, even after achieving smth, de happiness felt jux last a short while. Den bcuz of de curious nature, u'll keep askin why why n more whys. When u're a kid, pple happily ans ur qsns, but as u grow up, pple c ur qsns as naive n silly. Den u will be flooded wif unanswered qsn marks all over de head, wich is not realli good. Thou sumtimes not noeing sumtings is a blessing, but tis stupid curiousness jux makes u keep wanting to noe, n bugging u. Mayb jux stop tinking too much n lead a simple simple life, enjoyin it is de best. But sumtimes i oso dunno wad i realli want, wich is realli me n felt quite lost. Prob bcuz i tink too much, wth.

Saw tis page in jimmy liao's book: "Some pple are born unable to see, some r born unable to hear, some pple r born mute, some pple cant smell flowers, some pple hav no legs, some pple bedridden all day, but y do i still hav to grumble tad i cant fly like a bird?

Jus find it quite meaningful, thou some pages in tis book i don realli understand..haa.
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too much to take in le..watched 2 impactful movies 2day. Once was during GP, its a movie of a real incident, genocide in rwanda, Africa. Damn cruel la, kill lai kill qu, children & women r not spared, all de innocent lives loss 4 some senseless killing.. thou nv realli show those violent parts, but still felt de ugly side of human beings. Anw 1st time GP like everione so pay attention, haha usualli we'll all fell asleep.

After sch watched poseidon wif sunnu, gr8 show! excitement all de way after de shio sink, breathtaking man. lol..i tink i shldnt had my meal jux b4 tad, i feel damn bloated after de movie, too exciting le, den dunno wad happen 2 mi stomach..hahax. Well it does make me tink twice b4 goin on a cruise to deep sea nxt time..lol.

Wad a bad day! Rain ge pii la..rain rain rain..grrr. Well, went sentosa wif lainie, ra & yu..ya tot it would b fun. But when we reach de beach it started to rain, how sad. So we went in sakae n slack. Nice sushis thou! MMmm, simply love all de crabmeat sushis..lolx. After tad was bad weather thruout n dere goes my tan. Lainie n ra siao one, pay 3 dollars go dere slp..lolx, not spontanious de. Den is like whole day slack dere lor. Anw yu lost his hp on our way back, how suay, dere is a stealer on de bus. Its jux de wrong day to go sentosa ba, all of us r tired plus de bad weather, duh -.-

Watched xian jian qi xia zuan last epi jux now, another sad ending. Yuck, y do endings always hav2 be sad nowadays, all de good pple die leh. Anw its a nice show la..haha love tis kinda shows tad does not depict reality ^^
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Jux now met yisin jie 4 lunch @ ajitsen..so long nv tok to her le, glad she jio me out. Envy, she's slacking now..lolx. Anw went 2 de cinema outside dere n saw alot of nice movies screening now/soon! So tempting!! Wanna watch de wild, poseidon, over de hedge, de voice, X3!!! lolx..yue wo leh =P
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wa lao..MTV asia awards most popular s'pore artist is not sun yanzi??!!! How could it b man..grrr..how could it b taufik, he disappear so long le!